I moved. I have an awesome job. I have an amazing new boyfriend. I'm moving into an apartment this week. I'm starting Grad School in late August. And I'm having surgery again.
I think this hits the highlights of the summer.
Honestly, I want to blog, I've missed it. I just don't know what to say. There have obviously been a lot of changes since May, but really I don't know how to put it all into blog posts.
I'm a little overwhelmed right now. With getting ready to move from the house I'm in and into an apartment, there is stress. The upcoming surgery doesn't help much either. My job is stressful, but I do love it. Getting ready to start Grad School is terrifying. My roller-coaster emotions and hormones definitely don't help all of this.
But one thing has really been eating at me for a long time. Get ready for this....
I am a little passive-aggressive.
Unfortunately that phrase is over used and loses its meaning, or means "absolutely crazy." Really to me that phrase means, I don't know how to explain my emotions or things that are really bothering me without being "fine" and then snapping.
If I'm being completely honest, I really don't like that part of me. On of the things that my Mom always told me about moving was that you get to start over. I knew that moving back home would be different since they already know me here, but I knew I could at least work on my "passive-aggressive" tendencies. Until recently I thought I was doing really well. But of course I got cocky and it came back to slap me in the face today. I'm slowly learning to wait until I calm down or until I can figure out an appropriate way to express whatever is going on, instead of saying things I don't mean and that I will regret. I would rather be silent than to deeply hurt the people I cherish the most.
All of this really comes down to not trying to do it all and handle it all by myself. I know it's not healthy, but sometimes I forget and try to be Wonder Woman. I'm totally not her. I'm having to learn to trust God with all of this and trust that He has put people in my life to help me through it all.
